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Hon. F. L. Wood. William Johnson, son of William Charles Johnson and Mary Theresa Johnson, daughter of Peter Wellington Furse, born Jan. 9, 1823. Elected King's Scholar at Eton, 1832. Newcastle Scholar, 184 1. Elected Scholar of King's College, Cambridge, Feb. 23, 1842. Chancellor's Medallist for English Poem, 1843. Craven Scholar, 1844. Succeeded to Fellowship at King's, Feb. 23, 1845. B.A. Cambridge, 1845. Appointed Assistant Master at Eton, Sept. 17, 1845. Became tenant of Halsdon, 1870. Left Eton, Easter, 1872. Resigned Fellowship at King's, Oct. 1872. Took the name of Cory, Oct. 1872. Left Halsdon and lived in Madeira, Feb. 1878. Married Rosa Caroline, daughter of Rev. George de Carteret Guille, Rector of Little Torrington, Devon, Aug. 1878. Birth of his son Andreiv Cory, July, 1879. Returned to England and settled at Hampstead, Sept. 1882. Died, June 11, 1892. Buried at Hampstead, June 16, 1892. LETTERS AND JOURNALS FAMILY LETTERS [pages 1-61), to his Father and Mother, Mr. and Mrs. C. W.Johnson, his Brother^ Rev. C. W, Furse^ and his Sisters. Eton College, May 6, 1838. Though I have not written to you yet I may sup- pose that you have heard of my arrival and subsequent proceedings, either from Mama or Sarah. The four-oar is in full operation, and I enjoy it very much, going out about two hours a day and sapping at private work three a day on an average. One of the political plays of Aristophanes, which is very satisfying and amusing, but hard in many respects, is my present occupation. I hope to finish this and two more this half, with other things of which I am yet uncertain. Great interest is excited at this time in the school by a prospectus printed at Ingalton's in Eton, stating that early in May (that is, within a few days) will be published ' Translations and Paraphrases from the striking passages of the Classics in Poetry,' price one shilling. The plan is very conceited and arrogant, and the idea of translating the Classics is neither attractive nor likely to succeed, as it has been done by so many B 2 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [May great m^n already. The author states himself to be an Etonian, and signs himself ' M. H.,' which is supposed to be fictitious ; and Westmacott, a clever youth, understand- ing this kind of work (publishing), desultory in reading, and possessing a good deal of leisure, is fixed upon as the author. It will be continued periodically if the first number sells. I shall buy it at all events, but do not expect to be either edified or amused by its contents. I only hope that it may lead to some general publication conducted like the Etonian by the united talent of the school, which might reflect credit on the school, and show that while engaged in the more abstruse studies of Latin and Greek, we do not neglect those literary fields in which former Etonians have so much distinguished themselves. I dipped into Horace Walpole s Royal and Noble Authors lately, and think from his style and versatility of talent that if the system of periodical works had prevailed in his bo) hood as it now does, he, with his friends Gray and West, might have conducted a most excellent concern after the fashion of the Etonian, I wish you joy of yoijr vacation, which must have commenced by this time. Eton, May 14, 1838. I have some news, for a wonder. Last night we began our theatrical season with the Original and the Sleep-walker^ two tolerable farces, acted in the best possible style as far as the great characters, and got up in scenery, &c., very neatly and cleverly, especially considering our very limited funds, about £'] odd. The theatre is erected in Long Chamber, in front of two small chambers, where they dress ; there are six scenes to last the season, and curtains, &c., with beds turned up 1838] THEATRICALS. ' MONT EM SURE' 3 used as walls. Beds too were our ;ers who recjuire something- of that exercise of discipline which a rei^^iment or a ship's crew reciuire. IMy dilhculties would, no doubt, be with those weak minds in which the will is feeble and the conduct regulated by impressions instead of choices. . . On the other hand, you do not set before me any detailed plan of doing good as a lawyer. Of course it is important that men of active general sympathies should, in a layer of society in which the understanding is highly educated, maintain the position of men living for an unseen Master and imitating a Divine Pattern. For a laymen in London the precept about ' confessing Christ ' must be translated into a command to guard his lips, so that in all discussions on newspaper topics or personalities he bears witness for Him who once for all made it mankind's task to tread down sin and achieve peace. Wilberforce s position in London was inestimably valuable ; Gladstone's is very valuable. But this is to be observed — they were drawn into that position by certain tangible duties, they had a definite mission. Now with me this would not be so ; any influence I might have on other people's thoughts would be merely incidental. I cannot go to London saying that my business is to go about in clubs and Law-Courts to show folks that it is possible for a man of letters and a reformer to be religious. If I go there it will be to live a sober and manly life under severe mental discipline, denying myself the intellectual luxuries I could command at Cambridge, for the purpose of gaining an honest live- lihood ; of course intending to avail myself of any opportunity that might present itself for helping the progress of Christianity. I never looked many years 32 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [April ahead when I was making up my mind to go to London. I was taken up with thinking how safe I should be from Cambridge sloth or Eton excitement, what vigorous manly work my mind was to be doing, how hardy and quiet I should be. I begin to fear that I should be barren there — that I should be in want of those really intimate allies who, actively or passively, have done me so much good. I see how difficult it w^ould be to avoid intercourse with men in whose presence I should be apt to make compromises and concessions. On looking closer I think my life there would be more worldly than my recent life has been at Cambridge, more worldly also than my life would be as an Eton Master. K. C. C, Apnl 24, 25, 1845. I am unusually well. Our boat is almost an absorbing interest this week, because of the races. We have achieved a complete conquest over the unkind pre- judices of our elders in the College, who at first threw some cold and not very clean water on the project of the revival of the boat club. Wednesday was to be the first race, and we practised at 7.30 in the morning, and then had to race twelve hours afterwards. And greatly rapt I was about it all day, thinking about it almost as keenly and cjualmishly as I used to about one of our national struggles at football. We had to start last but one, because we had so recently entered. It was the wildest scramble — we had to change our place at the last moment, but started advantageously. You know we are not allowed to look on the bank (much less at the pursuing boat), but keep our eyes straight aft and think about every stroke : nothing could be 1845] KING'S BOAT. MAYNOOTII GRANT 33 wilder than pullinqr thus with a dozen unseen partisans on the bank shoutinn;- to us ' Go at them ! ' as if we were hulldoo;s set at a bull. In about 200 yards one mi^rht infer from the noises that we were close upon the quarter of the Emmanuel boat. Going round a corner, with not light enough to steer by, we found our oars digging into the sedge, and the boat going one-sided ; one or two lookers-on holloaing to our steerer (a very young but marvellously cool-headed being) to steer out (to give us room). Luckily he disobeyed, and persisted in making for their inside ; so in a few strokes more we were bumping them most decisively, and stopped and hoisted our flag, having had not enough work to give us a breathing — the Emmanuel eight looking sulky at being caught so early by a six-oar. We were down this morning, and find ourselves im- proved : one feels quite a professional interest in fulfilling all that our jockey has taught us ; and the improvement in health resulting from all this careful and vigorous life is a great reward for the surrender I make of puddings and parties and conversational walks. I am beginning to feel much less a ' man of letters,' and to look upon my merely indoor bookish acquaintances as incomplete people. And this too will pass away — this second boyhood now flourishing in Kings, this interest in the state of my sinews and wind. All our crew will be broken up, and I shall be thinking I have lost for ever some spring of existence ; and yet, if I live at all, I have no doubt I shall hit upon something else. This day last week we were getting up a petition among B.A.s and Undergraduates in favour of the Alaynooth grant. There had been one previously got D 34 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [May up against it. Milnes ^ (a man connected with our generation) wrote to Hallam ^ asking him to start a counter-petition, as he thought it would be valuable. Hallam was rather queered (it not being in his line to do anything, so conspicuous), and came to me to be en- couraged. I persuaded him to do it : he wrote a very terse, philosophical and original document, to which, at my request, he added a sentence. In twenty-four hours we had nearly 200 signatures, many more than we expected — the Trinity Bachelors (who are all more or less noted and powerful men) signed it in a body ; three of my King's friends did the same. It ran up to 250 by Monday morning. I do not know what has become of it since. It was a very successful attempt, and has been agreeably followed by a spirited debate, in which Hallam and two or three others beat the No-Popery men in argument, and quite advanced the standard of opinion. It ended by a majority of ninety to thirty-nine in favour of the grant. I like the whole affair (as it goes on in Parliament), as a signal triumph of the best educated classes over the half educated. In truth. Peel is now merely an exponent of the opinions that are prevalent amongst the most intelligent London circles, and one must have done with his history. K. C. C, May 19, 1845. I think death is all the more terrible the less we talk about it — for instance, it never seems a more awful thing to me than when I think of it in connexion with one of those youthful associates (such as members of our boat crew), with whom one never by any chance speaks of • Lord Houghton. ^ II. II. Hallam. 1845] DECIDES TO GO TO ETON 35 dyin^ as a thino;- they have anything to do with per- soually. On the other hand, in thinkinj^ of soldiers death is not terrible, because it is so completely one of their properties or necessary elements in all calculations. 1 feel just now a great inclination to be a soldier. (That is to say, I did yesterday ; but to-day (May 20) I have forgotten all about it.) I got up at the right time this morning, which has made me happy ; and I have had, as a substitute for a walk, another spell at our Fitzwilliam pictures, which was agreeable. . . K. C. C, July 12, 1845. I came to the conclusion that I might come back here for my degree (the railway bringing the two places so near each other), and that I might face the difficulty about the Norrisian Lectures^ by applying at once to head- quarters. So I wrote to the Bishop of Lincoln a con- cise and plain statement of the case, asking whether he would be content w^ith a certificate of my having passed the Theological Examination (which cannot be till next year), and dispense wath the other despicable formula. A day or two ago I had his answer : he said he would * in my case ' do without the Norrisian Professor's cer- tificate. I onlv wish I had WTung: from him a g^eiieral relaxation of that yoke, or that my case could as a precedent tend to rescue others from that formality which one would suppose the really useful examination might supersede. I am presently going to write to Hawtrey to say so — wherefore I conjecture that I shall be at Miss Edgar's in the middle of September. Rumours * The Norrisian Professor's certificate was required by Bisiiops of candidates for Holy Orders. D 2 36 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [July are rife about Abraham's entire departure : if he goes, they will perhaps expect me as ' boots ' to take his policeman's beat in College — a thing plainly impossible, which I should refuse summarily and scornfully. How- ever, I hope they are not really going to let their most high-minded officer leave them thus (from mere stress of uncongeniality). Birch says he gets somewhat tised to the listening to 270 boys on a Friday (ninety, three times in the day each) saying their lessons ; of course there is a certain natural provision for callousness. The people in the Andes get larger breasts to make them breathe in the thin mountain air : I also shall get by the law of adaptation some hitherto undreamt-of power of abstracting my mind — letting it think at will while my ears endure the same page of Greek grammar thirty times repeated. I am going into an abyss of drudgery — I must float upon the hope of some success in perhaps one pupil out of fifty — the hope, that before my time is out I may rejoice in having turned out of my pupil-room perhaps one brave soldier or one wise historian or one generous legislator or one patient missionary. . . I find myself frequently reading books or parts of books irrelevant to my essay, but to which I am guided by the eager search for facts I am obliged to make. I am beginning rapidly to people all that blank of 1,000 years between the sixth and the sixteenth centur)^, in which hitherto I have only had a few scattered facts and quasi -facts to serve as landmarks in the wilderness. . . Though I am set to write only about the gradual soften- ing and loosening of I^^uropean slavery, I find everything almost that history supplies helping mc to an under- standing of that inexiiaustible subject of which this is 1845] LEAVING CAMBRIDGE 37 only a slice — the influence of Christianity upon human nature. As there are other men writing who are quite competent, I do not think I shall get the money offered as a reward ; but anyhow it is a good hit for me— it satisfies a want. This is my last good hearty draught of literature ; my castle-building seven or eight years ago always ran in the direction of a merely literary book-eating, book- making life ; and now the wish returns. I suppose if I was a Frenchman I could get in their institutions a sure livelihood as a journeyman history-monger — history is a profession there. Here, as the young people don't take up Ranke and Palgrave for their degree, there is no demand for a coach in that line of business ; but see if I don't make the smaller fry at Eton write me holiday essays about St. Louis or Simon de Mont- fort or Charlemagne. If Haw^trey would but let me alone a little w^hile longer I w^ould come to his great verse-mill almost a learned man instead of a smatterer. He is perpetrating a great anomaly, I think. K. C. C, Sept. 3, 1845. I am taking my last walks and closing up one or two trains of associations, not with much sorrow, though I am giving up a great deal, and going from a place where I have met with more justice and kindness and helpful friendliness than I thought a place could furnish. There are many things I might have done here, particu- larly mathematics, geology, and some deeper scholarship. My education is incomplete, but still it is immeasurably advanced since I left school and since I won freedom by the Craven. 38 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Sept. Eton College, Sept. i6, 1845. I arrived here late last night, and was rather pleased to find that there was to be no seven o'clock lesson. I had some trouble about finding- out in the morning what room there was for me, but soon after eight I found myself lodged in a little cell with a host of strange young people, and after some waiting I ascertained how many of them belonged to me. Saying by heart is a tiresome and unsatisfactory kind of teaching- work — but, drudgery as it is, I find in a few minutes that it requires a constant vioral ^^ovt^ the effort to be just, to deal even-handedly. It took an hour. I met Cookesley and broke fast w^ith him. At eleven I went into Chambers, and tried for the first time the seediness of standing there with the other journeymen, talking. I found myself soon afterwards in my place bellowing to forty-five book-bearing bipeds, of whom I found one to be an intelligent being, and expect to discover more. The time went very rapidly — so I suppose I did not find it a bore. And so much standing must be more healthy than much sitting. The worst of it is I am so badly off at home for a sitting- room, whereas the bedroom with its empty dressing-room attached is very good. Eton College, Sept. 30, 1845. 1 am very well, but my voice is weak for this bellow- ing ; it weighs heavily in the scale of my uncertainties. The noise of 200 boys and four masters in the Upper School is so great that it is impossible for those at one end to hear what goes on at the other, and therefore the instruction conveyed can be but fragmentary, and the great bulk of the division is learning nothing. 1845] FIRST WEEKS AT ETON 39 I think myself lucky if I can interest half a dozen near nciiihhours and cn(^i<;-e their attention. If I could but iiave proper opportunities, I am sure I have a dozen who would learn a good deal. . . I am not sure yet whether I am of any use here. I am told that is not a right way of putting the question. Eton College, Nov. 5, 1845. I have been an usher seven weeks : my juvenility is a fault mending every day, according to William Pitt's notion ; nor do I find my mind stagnating as it is generally thought ushers' minds do. As long as I find fresh interests germinating I have a right to conclude that I have not altogether mistaken my vocation. Sometimes I get encouragement in school, observing eagerness and inquisitiveness in some of the young people's faces — only perhaps w^hat I see is but an eager- ness for display and competition. Anyhow, it is their light-heartedness which makes the intercourse with them agreeable. On cold mornings w^hen they are dispirited, discontented and dull, I pity them, and also I pity myself. And I cannot help fidgeting when I find myself dis- tracted in the midst of investigations by talking, &c., which I must make perpetual digressions to rebuke and check — after all, it is but rubbing the blood off Bluebeard's key. As soon as I silence one battery another opens, and they force me to quarrel with them, though I believe they would really like to live in peace and on terms of amity. Nature never intended me for a disciplinarian, much less for a martinet ; rather for a * guerrlllero.' I am unable to browbeat or intimidate. In fact it is a difficult problem to solve — how to work mechanically without 40 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [May acting- a part — how to work in a business-like and natural way according to the laws of one's own char- acter, and yet keep up the conventional system of strict and summar^^ jurisdiction. Whether, with all the pains I take to broach facts and establish distinctions, I am teaching them anything, I often doubt ; in a few cases I fancy I see glimmerings of improvement. I am reading stoutly by myself, forgetting my higher classics, but getting general views which will put them in a new light whenever I return to them. I find Abraham a valuable ally, because he is a keen student, and fairly meets one's thoughts face to face, taking pains not to misunderstand them ; likewise he is a very high- minded and almost enthusiastic man. Eton College, May 17, 1846. I had till Monday felt very cheerful and confident about my prospects of Eton work. Now I am some- what discouraged. We are all so hopeless about getting Hawtrey to do the right thing, i.e. increase the staff adequately. Again, my boys make me idle, my time is frittering away. Ten of them are not enough to fill my hands, yet am I losing all habits of self-improvement. And I am beginning also to be dismayed at the amount of evil. It suddenly strikes me that this place is not only *a little world,' as the saying is, but 'the world ' — i. e. one of our three enemies. I mean an Eton boy is eminently a slave of the world ; and an Eton master is in nearly as great danger. I force myself to think of the text: 'Consider Him who endured such contradiction of sinners, lest ye be weary and faint in your minds. Ye have not yet resisted unto blood,' &c. 1846] FIRST WEEKS AT ETON 4t After all I am more In doubt than In anxiety ; yet the cares of professional manhood are come suddenly on me this week in a comj:)lcx form. Eton Collfx.f:, May, 1846. I had a fig^ht yesterday with some ninety Fourth-Form in one of the extra school-times, when all the new ones are worked in Greek grammar ^ I conquered them at the cost of two lives and a few seriously wounded. Since, I have got leave to split the ninety into two halves, which wall give me double w^ork in point of time ; but forty or so are not too many for my voice and eyes. Misanthropical feelings are engendered by their w^ant of order ; but I see one or two virtuous and rational ones who are my friends and fellow-soldiers, and their existence makes me very easily reconciled with human nature at large, inasmuch as I persevere in an old habit of idealizing, and live in the faith that my best Fourth - Form are most noble, most generous, most kind — as virtuous as men, without men s pride and know^ingness, as interesting as women, without women's tlmorousness and artifice. Eton College, Aug. 6, 1846. By help of a small telescope, the most happy purchase I ever made, I saw the play of the batter perfectly wuth the bowling and wicket-keeping. The same glass gives me countless new pleasures in looking at views, and I wonder I have never been told to get one before. Henceforth I shall no more go about without it than without my spectacles. ^ This institution, called ' Library,' existed till 1861. 42 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [J AN. Eton College, Jan. 13, 1847. After breakfast I started, on a quiet, dull day, for a long walk. I asked the way to Abbotsford, and w^ent by the carriage -road. It appears that one ought to go across country by the Rhymer s Glen ; but I had no guide. The first good thing I came to was Melrose Bridge, two miles from the inn — a beautiful view of Tweedside, which made me fairly feel that I was for the first time in my life in a poetical region — a place of compound attractions — not pleasant only to the eye because favoured by nature, but gratifying to the mind because connected with human thoughts and experiences. I did not know how soon I should get to the house. When I had turned from the Edinburgh road I kept looking about with my spyglass for it, afraid of missing the first view^ of it. I was very curious, in good spirits, glad to be alone, not at all sentimental or fanciful, vexed that I had not got up Scott's life lately. For many years I used to wish to see two places — first, Niagara ; secondly, Abbotsford. And the second best spot in the world, as I used to count it, was close by. The plantations interested me as I came near them. They are hardly young enough now to look formal. Men were sawing timber near the house. The entrance to the grounds is commonplace, the colour and masonry also — mere common reddish-brown stone, faced with grey stone, just like the common houses in Galashiels. In architecture it is certainly rather original, but not good — a great many doors, no regular main entrance, that I could see ; the situation not good — no particular view from it. The builtling too small to have towers, &c. I was admitted by a small door and 1847] ADDOTSFORD AND MELROSE 43 mean staira\se to the first floor, and was straightway in 'his' ch'ni nor- room, .-^jj the pert I^nollsh woman-servant called it. . . Then the armoury- here I was vexed with the want of appropriateness. I should have wished a man like Scott to have a museum of things Scottish and mediaeval ; but what had he to do with Polynesian war-clubs, Chinese matchlocks, Persian shields, &c. ? It looked too like a love of homicide. If he had carried out the principle he would have put alongside of the Scotch thumbscrews (which, of course, he was quite right to get) a model of a rack and of a guillotine, &c., &c. So in the drawing-room I was offended by the remarkable Chinese paper — a thing quite out of character with old British cabinets and chairs. After all, Abbotsford can hardly be better than Strawberry Hill in point of poetry. The library was the fourth room ; these four e7t suite take up the south front. The library is a delightful room, quite worthy of so great a litterateur — nobly furnished, barring the gaslight. His study, with its gallery and (almost secret) communication with the dressing-room upstairs, looked very like a place of hard, solitary work ; it has a double window to keep out sound and draught; only three chairs, for fear visitors should be adhesive. Scott's chair is a comfortable great easy-chair, which I was surprised at. . . I went away with my second or manly estimate of Scott (which, on reading Carlyle's, superseded my boyish estimate) de- cidedly confirmed by what I had seen. It is almost enough that he so highly valued the handsome gifts of George IV — enough, I mean, to show that he was a regular man of the world. Wordsworth and Shelley and Tennyson have lived more like poets, after all. . . I was shown over a factory : water-power, hand-looms. 44 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Jan. shawls, plaids, twills and tweeds — fine woollen fabrics. . • I did not feel this time ashamed of myself as a lounger when looking- at the labours of the factory folks : they work eleven or tw^elve hours a day, and so do I. There- fore I had a right, on one of my holidays, to go and look on. I also am a labourer now — and * labour is sacred.'. . Next morning after breakfast I saw the Abbey, happily without a guide, clambering about therefore to explore for myself . . But I don't like ruins so much as other buildings. The laceration and corruption pain me. Who would like a ruined picture ? Who likes a corrupt Greek play so well as he does a perfect one ? Whence comes the preference for ruined buildings ? If a building is a work of art it should be unmutilated. Nevertheless the tracery of a window without glass is abstractedly more beautiful than that of a window with glass. And a clean greensward, such as one walks on at Melrose, is more beautiful than a pavement. . . I spent two hours in the Minster ^ (N. B. — This was a good way of keeping my birthday.) It is all that I expected, and more, for I had no notion there was such a beautiful thing in the island as that most perfect, faultless Chapterhouse. The fires have not done much harm, and some good ; the fire in the choir, which destroyed the good okl woodwork deplorably, brought about the opening of the crypt below and the donation of a firstrate organ. You know that, besides an unrivalled display of old stained glass, which I examined with my spyglass — a whole group of new pleasures — York is honoured by a stone choir-screen containing niches with the English kings from the Conqueror to the beloved ' At York. I 1 1847] YORK MINSTER. PUPILS 45 Founder. How lucky it is that the kin^s of T^ngland were not canonized ! If they had been saints they would have been destroyed. As it is, poor Henry VI's face is miserably marred ; the authenticity of the earlier faces is, I suppose, very slio;ht. . . Hut of course as Henry VI was alive at the time his statue is trustworthy. I was surprised and delighted, and cjuite moved, to see what a sweet face it was — not pusillanimous, but innocent ; not sheepish, but kind; not like what the plaster casts one sees in King-smen's rooms make him, but like what one would wish and expect him to be. The Edinbiirgk Review once called him ' an unprincipled driveller.' This statue does not drivel a bit. It is clear that he was not unprincipled. He made a great effort for education, and he had Lollards burnt. I hope he had more volition in the former than in the latter act. I would have gone out of my way to see this most pleasing image (chin damaged, however, with a chip) of my benefactor and taskmaster, Eton, 1847. I take very little pleasure in my elder pupils, and I think of resorting, if I can, to a Sixth-Form colleger, Bradshaw\ whom I like. I read next to nothing by myself; I wish I could. But as it is I am absolutely neglecting about half my pupils, except as regards what is done in class. My school division, which used to be dead weight or vexation, is on the whole more inte- resting to me than pupils. Many of them have been with me a year, most of them not less than six or seven months. This does not often happen. The young * Henry Bradshaw, University Librarian at Cambridge. 46 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [July people in turn-down collars are ten times more agree- able than the louts in tail coats. Eton, 1847. Maine ^ arrived after the young- Lieutenant's departure, and stayed with me till Tuesday morning, going to vSt. George's, lionizing Eton thoroughly, and exploring the Park as far as a cold grey day would let us. W^e talked together for some twenty -four hours nett. He told me much that I wanted to hear of London gossip, political and literary — lifting for a few days the curtain which hides that great glittering world from me. He is inexhaustibly lively and powerful ; somewhat impetuous still ; but, thanks to marriage and hydropathy, more kind and patient and philanthropic. He and I went through several hard subjects in the old Cambridge way, in that method of minute comparison of opinions without argu- ment which I believe to be peculiar to the small intel- lectual aristocracy of Cambridge. So that those three days have lifted me more than six weeks of mere reading. It is this systematic talk with a well-educated reasoner which I am always wishing for. . . A school- master must needs get dogmatic or weak in faith or both unless he has some such intercourse with equals or superiors — and it is of infmite importance that they be men of his own age. July 31, 1847. [Castel, after missing a train.] I mustered up my German and asked for an hotel ; found one close to the station ; stopped outside the door just long enough to * Sir Henry Sumner Maine. ,847] TOUR IN GERMANY 47 get up out of Murray's Handbook of Travel Talk the phrases for gettinn- ,1 bcch-oom, coffee, &c. ; performed these evolutions, found myself in a very j^ood hotel where there were no vestic>;-cs of compatriots, and so felt myself to be really a stranger in a forcii^n land. . . Being- appre- hensive of fraud in the bill, I thoug-ht I had better study the coinage. So I gave vent to a request. ' Change me a Napoleon, please ! ' Having got the new coins, I read their legends, held them up to the waiter, ascertained their names and relations to one another. It was one of the pleasantest discoveries I ever made to learn that a florin and a gulden were of the same value. I then went through the new evolutions of ascertaining what was the first train in the morning, arranging the times for being called and breakfasting. . . Everything went right, and when I was seated in the 6.30 a.m. train, going through a nice country, with a very pretty view of Wiesbaden, I felt (all unwashed and unkempt though I was) more lively and traveller-like than I had before. The adventure at Castel was, in fact, a good stimulant. When I got to Frankfort at 8.0 I invaded the Gepacks- Expedition or luggage office — found no one there, seized my two companions, carried them to a fly, holding out my ticket all the while, drove to the Hotel de Russie, where I knew I should find Scott ; dressed w^hile they w^ere breakfasting, compared notes, and found that he had had difficulties and em- barrassments too, all arising from the hurry we were in about the train. We then had a very pleasant run on rails to Heidelberg ; the line, without cuttings, embank- ments or bridges, skirted at a short distance a line of hills lying on the east the whole way. For several miles 48 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Oct. in the neighbourhood of Darmstadt the meadows were beautifully wooded, the villages frequent and comely, the hills varied in contour, the whole thing ver>^ rich, cheerful and pretty. In due time we came to a broad opening in the hills, where the Neckar came down to the Rhine. Eton, Oct. 20, 1847. I was out of bed a good deal yesterday, but very busy all the time. To-day I am quite at rest comparatively in my Cambridge great chair, and I think you will be glad to see in my hand a statement of my release from an imprisonment of five days. Immunity from headache makes bed a happy, active place for me. I have been free from school government, and doing nothing but teach, government being carried on for me. I am a bad governor, but I am getting to be a good teacher : I think I like teaching better than any other employment, pro- vided I am learning at the same time, which has been the oise lately. I have had very kindly domestic interviews in my bedroom with pupils, one or two at a time ; and though my throat makes me often think of resigning, yet my recent thoughts run upon the blessing of my present life and the great loss I should sustain if I had to go away from it prematurely. Eton, March 3, 1848. The Modern History Professorship ^ is soon going to be closed up : it will not be open again in my lifetime. No great matter. It will probably be given to Grote, ' Vacant by the death of Prof, Smyth, who was succeeded by Sir James Stephen, K.C.B. 1848] HISTORY PROFESSORSHIP 49 a brother of (jcorge Grote the historian : this will be a very good appointment. I should never be man enough for a place like Cambridge ; but at a second- rate University 1 should make a good history professor, as things go. June 4, 1848. I do not feel at present inclined to stay at Eton, if I can get any other income w^hich will allow of my paying my premium. I can do hardly anything as a teacher or as a ruler of boys. June 5, 1848, Abraham lends me his schoolroom by way of help : it enables me to be heard, but it has countervailing disadvantages which have given me great trouble. The task of keeping my mob in a state of quiet attentiveness when their blood is warm is a task beyond my powers ; it is comparatively easy in the cool morning. I get sometimes absolutely sick of setting punishments — quar- relling so much with my subjects ; but in the pupil-room there is teaching, which by itself I like. . . I look at the plasterers and carpenters now working here, and envy^ them their weekly wages ; for all my shoutings and questionings and mortifications, and all the ill-will I have to contract by punishing, I have not received a farthing. 50 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Mav Eton, May 26, 1849. Last Sunday I went to Church in the tent\ of which you have heard. I was admitted as one of the choir, and hope to sing better to-morrow. . . I have been rather idle this week with pupils, busy with my sixty boys in school, who give more pleasure than my pupils. Eton, Oct. 27, 1849. These rides (the last I had was to Beaconsfield, where Burke lived) make me feel that this is an interesting district The extension of my topographical knowledge since I first lived at Eton corresponds with the expansion of my other interests. I find enough here now to con- stitute a home. My lecture^ cost me about twelve hours^ hard work, throwing overboard two ' private business lessons, and making the next day, which should have been pretty clear, a day of very hard work. It did me eood, no doubt ; writing makes a correct man. I had to deal with a subject of which I knew so litde in detail (though full of general views of it) that I was obliged to be particularly cautious-and yet I was so moved by some thoughts that had been swarming at odd times for some weeks that I felt myself lifted up a little, so as to be at the time of delivery fearless of criticism and regardless of my audience. I lectured on the geological books of Hugh Miller, the self-taught Scotsman, now one of the leaders of the Free Church. His last publication is so recent that I am, I believe, the first of its reviewers. • Th<= temporary building used for service wl>ile the alterations of thc CoUcRc Chapel were procccdicig. » On geology ; one of several lectures delivered at Windsor. i85o] LECTURES AT WINDSOR 51 I observe that Huckland is goinjr to lecture upon it at Oxford ; so tliat I hit upon something- evidently worth notice. As to tlie final cause of this lecture of mine, I merely wished to pay a personal attention to my neigh- bours, and to let them know me in some phase of my character or other. If 1 am asked again I shall be inclined to repeat the experiment — as it does me good, whether it is of use to my hearers or not. . . Eton, Jan. 14, 1850. You should try hard to g"et hold of the Erasers for December and January. Read Carlyle's paper about the West Indian negroes, and then read Mill's answer. One preaches a ' gospel of work,' the other a ' gospel of leisure ' — both wrong. The right gospel is a gospel of probation. It is the most notable bit of polemics I have seen lately. I meditate lecturing at Windsor on slavery. Eton, Ash Wednesday, 1850. I have no time to think about politics : only I smile scornfully and proudly at the breakdown of the Pro- tectionists, all the more gratifying because it is caused by the sterling patriotism and unselfishness of many who call themselves Protectionists, and who just now are behaving admirably ; e. g. Lord Castlereagh, Lord Yarborough, &c. I have read modern English history as much as most people of my age, and I am convinced that in no genera- tion since the Long Parliament met has there been so much virtue and wisdom amongst our legislators as there is now. E 2 I'XL 52 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [April I have had as much stupidity and idleness as usual, and rather more cheating, but no malice : most of the young people very amiable and flexible — a good many enlivened by my philosophical puzzles, which I set every week (questions or problems in physics, &c.), with the talk thereupon. This brings out intelligence in half a dozen boys who cannot write poetry, and it supplies phenomena for a dozen more who can ; and the rest, if they do not quite follow the reasoning, smile as they look on, and are at least aware of their ignorance. My air-pump, microscope, &c., are daily inquired after : when they come we shall have pneumatic recreations now and then, and in May we may look at flowers and insects and learn something about them. Did you hear of my being half invited to Rugby to be second to Goulburn ? Catch me going ! N.B. — The negotiations never really began. Warminster, April ■^, 1850. I tried hard to get up some health last week, and for the last three days at Romsey seemed to be succeeding. On Sunday I went, by help of a railway, with ten miles walking altogether, to and from Hursley, where I heard Keble preach a better sermon than any I ever read of his. Nothing could be more pastoral : he has not that Oxford voice and tone which one gets so tired of, but a thick utterance, such as I can fancy Moses had — the speech of a man both meek and brave, who has just come from the Presence-Chamber. He spoke like a man who had been just giving way to grief, piusing some- times in the middle of a sentence, though not using any warm emotional language nor discoursing on any painful subject. His church is very perfect. L. D., I remember, i i85o] JOHN KEBLE. SCIENCE AT ETON 53 was rather sad when we saw a Roman church near Malvern, beciiuse our communion had no such holy places, so well built and furnished. I thought when I was in Hursley church that she would like to be there, and would have no reason to envy the Romans. Eton, Nov. 1850. H. Dupuis announces his wish to be Provost of King's. He is not likely to beat Okes. If either goes I shall gain a step in school — get into the Remove. I cannot face the expense of changing houses too. But to get out of the Fourth Form might prolong my life a year or two. My Fifth -Form boys are generally so idle, frivolous and undisciplined, and do so much harm to the young ones, that I get ill some days of sickness of heart ; but then the place and the work provide remedies, some- times an eager open-eyed listener sitting as long as I like to hear me read him poetry or translate Greek or Latin verse to him, sometimes a piece of unexpected industry or taste, sometimes a piece of good conduct or rather of high virtue, forgiveness, humility or the like, sometimes an unanimous burst of inquisitiveness in a small and youthful class, or an impromptu vote of thanks for some interesting story or out-of-the-way information. Last night I had a happy party of small boys receiving shocks and sparks from an electric machine ; and though it all ended in breakages and a headache (not my head, but Scott's, who operated), yet it was a successful affair. Indeed, one can make Eton a palace of art, science and nature — anything but a Christian Church. Yet there are a few children of the ' free woman ' even here, dwelling in the tents of Kedar : and I feel that they are too strong for the mocking Ishmaelites. 54 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Dec. K. C. C, Dec. i8, 1850. Next day Barrett ^ brought two Oxford guests into Hall and Combination Room — one was a good mathema- tician and modest man, Spottiswoode -, who was expelled from Eton by Hawtrey for fireworks or some such thing — the rashest act of Ha\\i:rey's whole life, I suppose. I was rather surprised to find myself alongside of tw^o men who were as much in favour of the University Commission as I am. At Eton, on Dec. 6, I was regu- larly ' booed ' by our dons, particularly Coleridge, for speaking in defence of the Commission. I also noted Barrett's direct avowal of a belief that Protection is utterly indefensible, though its abolition may or must injure college property. This is another plain, old- fashioned man, besides Mr. Wicksted, on the right side. Eton, Jan. 9, 1851. I feel as strongly as any one that the Sunday service in a parish church, though be-musiced as much as at this place, and filled out as far as possible, remains very jejune and bald — and I should be glad to belong to a nation which would allow it to be varied, enriched and beautified. Such a clergyman as this Mr. Page of the Broadway, a truly laborious priest, will, I hope, be undisturl)ed in his intoning, in his preaching with a surpHce, without a previous prayer, and in his an- nouncing quietly the Festivals of the week. And I hope no one in the present generation will attempt what Bennett has disobediently struggled to retain, l^ut I also hope that in after ages our Prayer ' Kcv. K. H. Barrett, Fellow of King's. '' W. Spottiswoode, P.R.S. ,851] LONDON IN SPRING 55 Book will he orcatly enlarged and beautified, with wSunday forms differing from weekday forms, and with special services for "by, putting up a painted window. To Hon. Charles Wood. June 14, 1855. I have had a curious invitation — to go to Brigrhton, for Sunday, to meet my old travelling companion Seymour, now a Crimean hero. I should like to go ; but of course refused. Seymour wrote me word that all tlirough the horrid winter he ' never for an hour was sick or sorry.' Campion showed me just now a genial, simple letter from his brother, written off Balaclava : he was not allowed to land his regiment (72nd), being at once ordered off to join the other Highlanders at Kertch. He says they were all (in his ship) in high spirits and health, and eager with excitement. All right ! - but yet I do not relish this campaign like the last. Though anxious to hit hard if we must hit at all, I have been unexpectedly convinced by the speeches of Messrs. Gladstone, S. Her- bert, Bright, Lord Stanley and Mr. Walpole that we ought to have made peace the other day instead of pressing the ' limitation ' as a sine qua no7t. I do not remember any debate in which one party so completely out-argued the other. Lord Palmerston's final speech had all been anticipated, and was as flimsy as possible. All through the debate I used to give the Fifth Form my views of what was worth reading ; and it was in reporting to others the speeches of the Peace-party that I was myself convinced. Finally, I discoursed for an hour on the subject and, I beUeve, convinced my hearers. . . Lord Grey did perhaps more than any one to convince me ; but there were parts of his speech which savoured F 66 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [June too much of the pleader maintaining- a paradox rather than of the true statesman. . . . Just compare these debates with the Fox or Can- ning brilhancies, and you will see how far we are advanced beyond those clever men of old times in gravity and wisdom. Lord Palmerston smacks of the old unreformed House of Commons, in which repartee and clap-trap told more than reasoning, and every argument was addressed to persons from an egotistical, or at least factious, point of view. The only thing to be said for him is that Disraeli is still more hollow and heartless, and Lord Derby hardly better than either. He told Bright he had no right to speak of the honour of Russia, as he threw over the honour of England. Now this is a common fallacy — the use of a word in two ways. Bright might have said, perhaps, that we must not fight for honour — meaning ' military glory ' or ' prestige.' But Bright never said that we were not to fight in cases in which our honour was assailed. For instance, if our right to navigate the German Ocean were denied (practically), Bright would assert that right, sword in hand. If we were bound up in treaties and by promises to defend Denmark or Portugal, Bright would fight for Denmark or Portugal. Lord John Russell (whom 1 do not respect, as you are aware) was, in my opinion, perfectly right to do what the Times to-day abuses him for doing — saying at Vienna that in making arrangements for the security of Turkey the honour of Russia also should be con- sidered. They may go on as long as they like ham- mering at the plan of ' limitation ' — but, after all, the only solid security against further intrusions of Russia in Southern r2urope is to be found in Austria. Austria should be charged \ioi the general good) with both ,855] CRIMEAN WAR 67 banks of the Danube all the way to the mouth. The Frcncli oui^ht to liave an arsenal and advanced post as near Constantinople as Malfci is. Then there will be a fair scramble. The Four Great Powers will be all alike able to c;-et to the great bone of contention, which they should bind themselves by the act of a Congress, equal in solemnity to the old Congress of Vienna, to respect and abstain from as a forbidden luxur^^ I suppose when you challenged me to give you my opinions about the present state of things, you meant me to have an opportunity for owning that, after all, the Aberdeen and Palmerston Cabinet have done very well. I do not think so, though. The evidence of Lord Aberdeen proves, what I thought before, that he erred like Sir R. Walpole in consenting to be at the head of affairs in a war in which he took no interest. An honest man in a false position — such was Lord Aberdeen. His successor I am tempted to describe as a dishonest man in a position which suits him well, only perhaps less well than the managership of some establishment like Astley's Amphitheatre or Vauxhall Gardens. Oh for a year of Castlereagh — the only man who aimed at making England a military power, a nation sending in one year nearly 100,000 soldiers to war. Whereas, by their own confession, our late and present rulers aim at nothing more than keeping up in the field a force just double what Egypt or Sardinia can send, and after two years of war and rumours of war have no spare arrows in their quivers. I know of no naval operations in any history more satisfactory than these in the Sea of Azof. Naval opera- tions have generally been regarded by the English in an irrational manner, as good in themselves — whereas in F 2 68 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Jan. truth they are good only as subsidiary' to strategical movements on land. For instance, the battle of June i ", of which our grand- fathers were proud, was gratuitous bloodshed. vSo would the taking" or bombardment of Revel be now : it would not tend to the conclusion of the war. A war can be concluded, or a least a peace can be extorted, only by the ^^ctorious occupation of territory. The Baltic fleet should be regarded merely as making a grand diversion in favour of the Black Sea forces. To JR. War re Cornish. Halsdon, Jan. 7, 1858. Thank you for paying my bill and for writing to me. 1 am most sincerely sorry to miss you at King's. . . I should have specially liked reading in the same room with you, perhaps the same book, and I hope some vacation to have that pleasure, when you have arrived at a truly business-like perception of what is required for University Scholarships and Classical Tripos. At present you are thirty per cent, below the right concep- tion of your prospects and duties as a Scholar. I am afraid you do not know the value of the hours directly after Lecture, or just before and just after tea time. I have been talking more peremptorily about it to Browning, who is still ' sub vexillo,' than I can venture to write to you ; and I hop)e he will not forget to urge upon you the exfx^'diency of giving up the piano in your room as a fatal destroyer of reading. If you worked five hours a day in term time, besides Lectures, allowing one weekday as a holiday, and gave up two months of the vacations to extra reading in * Lord Howe's victory, 1790. 1858] ADVICE TO A FRESHMAN 69 Colleere or in some rural retreat in England or abroad (only not at home), working seven hours a day all but one weekday, there would remain plenty of time for kinsfolk and acquaintances, for alternative pursuits, such as music, French or drawing, and for (what I am very glad to see you value) active bodily exercise. But I can assure you that habitual dawdling at or near a piano, and standing about irresolutely at ii a.m., and sitting at wine later than 7 p.m., and spending all the immense and absurd vacations at home — all this is incompatible with high success, such as your many and hearty well- wishers desire for you. Going on at your present rate you may, no doubt, be somewhere in the first class of the Classical Tripos, but not an University Scholar, nor high enough in degree to be sure of a valuable appointment at Eton or elsewhere. Now these appointments will not be got so easily in your time as they were in mine. There will be half a dozen competitors for you : I had but one — hardly even one. I have been idle here — not because I am interrupted, for I hardly see any one but my bachelor brother — but I lost the impulse on coming away from Cambridge, where I had a most satisfactory fortnight of mixed work and pleasure — the first week not counted, which was very little but pleasure and letter-writing. I have in former years offered to help Kingsmen away from the College in the Long Vacation ; but it never came to anything. It might, perhaps, be in the minds of some of you to carr^" your lexicons into France or Switzerland or the Rliine valleys. If such a party is ever got up I should be glad to be invited to join it — though I do 70 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Jan. not any longer pretend to be learned enough to act as coach to people so advanced as our Scholars. . . How- ever, as to reading parties, I think, after all, you young people would read more at Cambridge, and the residence abroad would be more useful and pleasant after taking one's degree — and it is much cheaper to stay at King's than to read anywhere else except at home. And this brings me to the financial topic which I should be opening upon if I were fortunate enough to be walking with you just now, instead of writing in an empty house with no sound but the twittering of a lonely woodpecker and the popping of explosive firewood. Pardon my intrusiveness when I exhort you to spend an hour of your quiet vacation time in thinking over your Christmas bills, and calculating how much is mere initial outlay, how much is sure to come again, what payments you are deferring, whether you are not using for pocket money what is meant for necessaries, on the ground that the bills for necessaries will stand over and, indeed, rather like standing over than otherwise. I am wretchedly extravagant ; but I have been all my life frightened out of debt by seeing the degrading, slavish misery it brings on my relations and acquaint- ances. I see that it is an universal custom at King's to go spending one's necessary ;^ioo a year on railways, ' coaches,' and other things that require oish, and letting tailors, college cooks, &c., accumulate till one is B.A. or M.A. The miserable consequence is that at twenty-two a man is a slave for some time. He must take a private tutorship to work off his debts — whereas he ought to go abroad and live six months or a year en pension in France, doing nothing but continuing his own educa- tion. . . 1858] ADVICE TO A FRESHMAN 71 The thing" of all others that brinii^s one under water is ' runnincj- down ' to such and such a place. This sort of outlay is never reckoned in calculations of College expenses ; it takes away £20 or ^^"30 a year (when you include the incidental extra expenses for clothes, &c.) out of the sum meant for washing, groceries, books, &c. Another great and common cause of debt is buying what one does not actually want — books, prints, &c. I don't grudge a man a good deal for entertainments, particularly small select wine parties. But I protest against luncheons, meat at breakfast, suppers, long- 'combies' and the like. I spent ^30 a year on 'society' at Cambridge, and never spent money better ; £^0 on tuition, of which all but perhaps £^ was well invested ; but I spent money on books which I regret ; none on prints, however. The College library ought to be quite sufficient for a King's man ; let alone such books as he must buy to pencil-mark for future reference. Again, pardon me for ending this violation of all conventional scruples by saying something- highly improper : If you want money to hire a coach, mathematical or otherwise, I beg that you will not take it from other claims, but let me advance it, and you may repay all such sums, ^100 if you like, when you are a prosperous man ten years hence or so. Anyhow, don't grudge money on tuition. I am sure you want a coach to strengthen your will for reading steadily and writing composition ; and I really set my heart on your doing something. To the late W. H. Gladstone. Eton, Feb. 12, i860. You pulled me headlong- last night into what I had always avoided with you, the discussion of a policy which 72 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Feb. naturally attracts your sympathy. As I was hurried I may have disturbed you by abrupt censure of what you admire, nil the more because of the atmosphere of similar feeling in which you move. I said that I thought Lewis the best Chancellor of the Exchequer in my time. I mean that I do not like the excessive prominence given to financial measures in 1853 and i860. I think it not good that the Budget should be the great product of a Cabinet. In the year 1842 it could not be otherwise ; but there has been no year since then in which financial measures have any title to enthusiastic exertion for or against them. To abolish a chronic deficit, and to adopt from Pitt's war-policy an engine of unlimited economical im- provement, was a grand and critical effort, and has made 1842 the turning-point in our recent history. The income-t:ix once established ought to have been soberly contemplated as a permanent institution, capable of sudden expansion in war, and giving in peace a fulcrum for operations more or less speculative on other branches of revenue. It was unwise to admit that it was a make- shift or a necessary evil. The existence of the tax in 1853 enabled Lord Aberdeen's Cabinet to reduce the 'taxes on know- ledge.' Its maintenance on the old sevenpenny rate in the years since the Russian war (which was rendered impossible by the anti- Lewis orator, followed as he was by Mr. Disraeli at a safe distance), would have enabled Lord Palmerston's Cabinet to knock off the remaining: taxes of knowledge last year, and the wine duties this year. . . I believe that people will expect the minister to admit that he was wrong in inveighing against the tax, to tSco] MR, GLADSTONE'S POLICY 73 admit that it must, in all probability, be permanent at a fixed rate (to rise in war), to settle once for all whether there are any remediable hardships about it, to put off all serious changes in the other taxes except such as arise out of the treaty with France, and to apply his original powers of thinking to the military and naval expenditure. We should also be assured that the Cabinet is in earnest about the Reform Bill. As it is, people suspect, not without reason, that this Pandora's box of disputiible finance is opened to let fly a cloud of troubles that will divert our attention from constitutional reform. The vice of the Budget is this : that it looks like ^ log-rolling,' or coalition bargaining. In order to trump Pakington, &c., the Palmerstons want to spend millions more than they need on dockyards and nondescript troops. The finance minister thinks this all wrong, but is so out of sympathy with the nation about the general attitude of self-defence that he has no great authority when he condemns War Office and Admiralty extrava- gance ; therefore he goes into competition with the money-spending ministers, and is indulged with fancy finance at the cost of disappointed taxpayers. At the same time the non-Whig member of the Cabinet, Mr. Gibson, drawing with him the support of Bright, is to be allowed his million for paper duties. A man of £200 a year w^ill be paying £2 or ^3 to gratify these individualities. Whereas what the men of £200 a year are willing to pay for is the pride and the noble joy of holding a high independent place amongst the nations ; and they would worship the minister who would show them, as I have not the least doubt it can be shown, that this can be 74 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [June done without the eighth or even the seventh penny of the income-tax. The Cabinet is too large, and too much of a parlia- ment, and it has an unprincipled, idle thinker at the head of it. But if it passes the French Treaty, it will be glorious in history. . . You see you don't escape the critical schoolmaster, even when a Lord of the Treasury. To Rev. C. IV. Purse. June, i860. I enclose you a letter which will, I think, show you that my pamphlet \ after all, is calculated to promote the cause of reform at Eton. Ashamed as I am of its in- congruities of style and awkwardnesses, I really think it has proved, thus far, curiously successful. The people here, whilst exulting in the defence against their assail- ants, have received a perceptible impulse onwards. I assure you, that it is not merely for the sake of having influence here that I am glad I reserved so much in my pamphlet. I feel that such a body as Eton College ought to be dealt with very considerately, and that one ought to give them full credit for anything in the way of progress. It is very pleasant to see Balston entering into the thing cordially and carrying the old men with him, and also to hear of WiUiam Carter glorying in his father's Uberal vote : ' It was the old man, after all, that carried it,' he said. To Rev. C. W. Fiirse. June 20, 1 86 1. I had been out last night at the Richmond dinner • ; so I read your note as soon as I woke, when the maid ' F.toH Reform, Eton, i860. '■' The annual dinner of the * Apostles.' i862] 'ETON REFORM/ HENRY BRADSIIAW 75 delivered it; and it was the happy be^innin^ of a very happy day, which I am now endin<;-. . . The dinner was rather less brilliant than usual, partly because F. Stephen was in the chair, partly beaiuse Walpole and Cookesley gave the thing- a wrong- turn, talking^ about Eton ; but it is a breath of mountain air to me, nevertheless. . . I had a good deal of talk to-day about the Commission with Lord Lyttelton, who came to see his son play as an old Etonian, and heartily enjoyed his innings of forty-nine, got carefully and slowly. It was a very jolly thing to hear the lads applauding the captain of last year ; and many of them know that his father is watch- ing him. I strongly recommended George Brodrick for Secre- tary to the Commission. Lyttelton is the only Eton man on. Twisleton is for Winchester, Lord Devon for Westminster, Lord Clarendon for the men that hate public schools. To Henry Bradshaw. Eton College, Feb. 9, 1862. Are you not coming- here ,'' You will have a new motive if they let you see Hawtrey's books, which will, I suppose, be sold. But come, anyhow, to see the boys and young men. My friend Dalmeny is looking forward to making your acquaintance, with the natural eagerness of a buddingr bibliomaniac. I took him last week to Lilly s, and he forthwith inquired for rare tracts printed by his ancestor Primrose. We went on to Evans's, and there he picked out a print representing another Primrose of the seventeenth century, preacher to the French Church in London. At 76 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Feb. Holloway's he bought autographs, and finally went and made acquaintance with my brother and sister, and showed as much interest in a live child as in dead books. He has the finest combination of qualities I have ever seen. He was quite taken, as I was too, with Duf- ferin's show speech (do you remember Dufferin, how Cookesley called him the ' orator ' ?) ; and when Wayte set theme out of it the boy put the peroration about * Laboramus ' into flowing-, simple, dignified Latin, and then went with me through the last book of the Princess. The night before I had translated to him most of the beautiful bits o{ A gainer Jtnon^2ind. I assure you he en- joyed the old poetry nearly as much as the modern. I am doing all I can to make him a scholar ; anyhow, he will be an orator and, if not a poet, such a man as poets delight in. To Lord Rosebery. King's College, April 20^ i86a. I have been qualifying for an interview with you by reading the Family Life of Pitt \ which I find savours not nearly so much of the family as of the Annual Register^ being stuffed with narratives of events which Pitt expressed no opinion upon— such as the Battle of Camperdown and the visions of Brothers. I find the third volume much better than the two first. There is really much valuable light thrown on Pitt's resignation. It is a successful book in raising one's already high estimate of Pitt's character ; but it is not at all an in- structive book for a politician ; e. g. the Budgets are treated in a startlingly superficial way. The author should at least have given us the benefit of a striking ' Life of Pitt, by Lord Stnnhopc. i862] PITT. LORD SJIELBURNE. BOCONNOC. 77 histor}^ of Pitt s financial policy given in a IJudget speech by Gladstone in itS53. . . The biooraphy ought to explain, I think, why and how Pitt was estranged from Shelburne, who was at startincr his leiider. I believe Shelburne must have been a really bad man ; but the silence about him after the break-up of his Ministry puzzles me in all books, since he remained for twenty years a leading speaker. . . On the whole the book is [more] like a shambling and scanty history of England, with an occasional insertion of something about Pitt, than a political biography. To a Ptipil. August 18, 1862. I wish you to be one that will not merely pick out and appropriate what pleases, but unconsciously attract and indirectly stir and elevate the minds of equals no less than inferiors. If you face all reasonable difficulties in the way of headwork, you will become less fastidious and therefore more influential in dealing with those in whom the head and the heart go together, that is the great bulk of active people. To Lord Rosebery. Penzance, August 29, 1862. This gallery [at Boconnoc] is very long, and seems to be famous. One end of it is a small, pleasant book-room, containing one or two Morocco relics of the first and last Lord Grenville ; amongst others a copy given by him to his nephew Lord Fortescue (my courteous host), of the Httle book which he edited, Chatham's Letters to his Nephew, with the letter of dedication to William Pitt, beginning so coldly ' My dear Sir,' after they had 78 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Aug. been so closely and dearly united in their sweet youth. Pitt never answered the letter, which must have been meant, in Addington's days, as an olive branch. I was taken to see an old beech called Gray's ; not the least proof that he was ever there ; but it is a sweet spot, worthy of him. . . Elsewhere, on a heath, a tall granite obelisk, sacred to the memory of Sir Richard Lyttelton, close to the battle- field^ where the great warrior of the west. Sir Bevill Grenville . . . helped to rout the Roundheads. . . This, and another bit of broken ground, form a charminor contrast to the lono- troug-hs of woodland where the deer and the streamlets wander. It is the most shady, soft, silent, dreamy, poetical spot I ever saw ; and I like to connect my beloved eighteenth cen- tury— the first age since the time of Pliny when men were at leisure to worship virtue — with so much truly natural beauty and repose. The house has a singularly delicate air of faded old- world refinement about it. I suppose it has never been smartened up for a new married couple for sixty years. I wish they could keep it unchanged. To F. War re Cornish. K. C. C, Nov. 17, i86a'. . . . Did you ever read in Keble's Lyra In7ioce7iiiiim the poem on ' Shyness ' } It should be in every teacher's note-book. . . I have sent these lads some modern history questions ; and Dalmcny promises to do them, that he may thereby * Bradock Down, Jan. 1643. ' This letter was written when Mr. Johnson was absent from Eton in consequence of illness ; his work being done by his colleagues at Eton. 1862] BOCONNOC. CHARLES KINGSLEY. MUSIC 79 induce me to come back — rather a circuitous reason, I would jrive you a piece of plate if you would ^et that lad to work : he is one of those who like the palm without the dust. He writes me word that he got ' fair ' for his Lyrics. . . Man after man comes here delighted with Kingsley. He has been going over the best possible subject — the early history of the United States : when G. reported to me he had got as far as the settlement of Georgia. Knowing the subject, I feel satisfied that he is telling them the truth ; and he is verifying my prediction that he would get more good from Cambridge than he would do it harm. John Mozley came here to-day, asking to be told about political economy and its relations to charity, &c., &c. : a thoughtful man, wishing for new kinds of knowledge. He also admires Kingsley 's lectures. Indeed, the testi- mony to their merits is oven\^helming. Liveing has his laboratory full of students : but Geology and Comparative Anatomy, the two cognate sciences which open the mind, are in abeyance. . . One of the scholars told me that in scholarship one can get no decided opinion from any one here but Shilleto. There was no one like Goodford, sure of the truth in a question of accuracy. . . Catch me reading Colenso. My divinity has been Edward Irving, Mores Catholici, Paradise Lost, Me- moires de Frangois de la Noue (the stern Huguenot). If there is one kind of literature that I hate more than another it is ingenious interpretation of the Bible ; worse than Gladstone on Homer. . . Did you ever read what follows ? * Music is the most entirely human of the fine arts, and has the fewest 8o LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Nov. analoga in nature. Its first delightfulness is simple accordance with the ear ; but it is an associated thingf, and recalls the deep emotion of the past with an intel- lectual sense of proportion. Ever>^ human feeling- is greater and larger than the exciting- cause — a proof, I think, that man is designed for a higher state of existence ; and this is deeply implied in music, in which there is always something more and beyond the im- mediate expression.' I wish one could get as solid a grain as this out of two books of Platonic chaff. Two books of Polity have I by shameless skipping (' the band as before ') got through in the last two or three days ; and I have got a little Greek, and some pretty dramatic playfulness ; but oh, how little science or poetry. I used to get sick of the everlasting- aWa ; but now I fancy whenever I see it that it is a bit of notation representing some bird-like movement of the beautiful Greek throat or eye, and it becomes very acceptable except at the end of a draggletail sentence. To Lord Roscbery. Torquay, Dec. 9, i86a. I wish you to read, though it is not much of a book, Bourne's Life of Sir Philip Sidney. Bourne has learnt to admire virtue and liberty from writers better than himself, and he writes in much the same strain as Motley. The really delightful part of Sir Philip Sidney's Hfe is his passionate yet intellectual defence of his injured father, rewarded by the father's perfect admiration. Of all human ha[)i)iness the crown is to be able to defend one's father, or to thank a son for his championship. i86a] SIR PHILIP SIDNEY. TIIORVALDSEN 8i To Rev. E. D. Stone. Torquay, Dec. i8, 1862. 1 send you a metrical experiment, having had the line running in my head — KarQavolaa h\ k(?^// but praises /ler. He is a very industrious man, and is quite happy at having so arranged his day as to gain half an hour lately. Mrs. Carlyle was greatly taken at Capcnoch with a little penny matchbox hung on a nail in her bed- 1863] WATERLOO. CARLYLES, SCOTT 95 room ; 'just what Tom would like of all things, to light his pipe with.'. . Thio'sday, Aug. 2j. I forq;ot that on vSunday I read a wonderfully good, original, scriptural, clever sermon of Spurgeon's on Ruth's dipping her bread in the vinegar. Nothing in the sixteenth or seventeenth century would have been more English and at the same time Hebrew. It requires genius, or something like it, to preach with so complete a deliverance from the style of this age. The imagery was half witty, if wit is truly defined as ' the discovery of unexpected relations between things,' and half poetical. George Herbert, Donne, Cowley would like it. Friday, Aug. 28. It cleared up by the time I reached Melrose, where I was dropt about sunset. I walked up stream, wondering to think how I had forgotten the place since I went there in my Christmas holidays of 1846 from Hartrigg. How dull and tame, how beclouded with misconceptions I was then, how enslaved by my Whig mentor ! The love of literature had then been overlaid by a half-hearted love of science, and though I went to see Scott's trees and books, I did not care for Scott in '46 as I did in '^f^^ when he died, and I subscribed five shillings to the fund for saving his library from creditors. And now, my ambi- tion being trodden under foot, my hopes of improving the world withered away, social liberty attained, tongue loosed, shyness diminished, theories given up, I find I love Walter Scott as well as I did in boyhood, and take Tweedside for the home of my fancy. . . Dryburgh, Saturday, Aug. 29. — I fell in with a dear little boy aged eleven, with a delicate voice, who told me the names I asked for. ' This goes to 96 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Aug. Galashiels ' (I had been there in '46). ' Do you know Gala Water ? ' ' No,' said he. I asked for the sake of the sweet song; and next day I had the pleasure of seeing- that classic water in full force from the train. ' Do you know the Eildon Hills ? ' ' Yes,' said he, smiling with a budding smile and looking up at them. I looked up too, recognized them with strange interest ; I fancied there was on them the same veil I had noticed in '46, when they seemed uncanny, and redeemed Tweedside from looking no more poetical than Devon- shire. . . I turned to the left, and got to the ruins of a suspen- sion bridge, where Tweed was flowing valiantly. After a little looking about I saw a bluff of red rock to the right, and, just before the river was turned by it, a series of ' stickles ' ; and going that way I soon was ware of a boat coming from a cottage opposite. I was sculled across for a penny below the rapids, and told I could not miss my way to Dry burgh Abbey. . . Bending gently to the right I came upon friend Tweed again, for he had been round the bluff meantime, and was doubling on himself like the good old Torridge. ... I rambled about with the pleasure of a discoverer, heightened by a grain or two of trespass ; nor did any one take umbrage except a bird or two, scared out of the ivy : other birds, one or two, perhaps only one, sang to me encouragingly ; and my scientific friends whom I have since consulted, tell me it must have been a robin. I thought all birds had relaxed uvula in August, so that I made much of this robin, if it was a robin. . . I don't know to this day who lives in those houses close to tlie ruins, who owns them. I only know I was ' 1863] DRYDURGII. SCOTT AND IVORDSIVORTII 97 alone there with the memory of Walter the Rhymer. How much more keenly than I could would he have enjoyed that clear shininir after rain, those \\^\\t shadows thrown by the clouds which swung- overhead, released from the labour of yesterday, free to drift where they liked now they had filled Tweed to his banks, and washed the cobwebs off Dryburgh. How kind he would have been to me. What life a few words of his, spoken in Scotch, would have put into my dull mind. The lines of his that haunted me then and there were — * Sound, sound the clarion, fill the fife : To all the sensual world proclaim, One crowded hour of glorious life Is worth an age without a name.' And Wordsworth's lines written at Abbotsford a year before Scott died — * A trouble not of clouds, or weeping rain. Nor of the setting sun's pathetic light Engendered, hangs o'er Eildon's triple height ^' And so on to the end of sonnet, which indeed is part of my mind, ending with ' soft Parthenope.' It makes me think of Virgil, whom, in a shadowy sort, I love and regret as a friend out of reach. What travelling is like that which takes one to the haunts of poets and the sanctuaries of historical nations .'* Green grow the water reeds in the moat that runs under Dr^-^burgh, and may no one tread that fairy-like ground that does not honour Scotland and her minstrel ! With which humble imitation of Washington Irving, and Yanks in general, I proceed to say that I walked home to Melrose on the road taken by Scott's funeral, halting as the mourners did on Bemerside for his ^ Yarroiv Revisited, ii (1831). H 98 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Aug. favourite view — a long quiet walk, only one touristical carriage all the way. Eildon Hills are to me henceforth a three - headed Parnassus, and Tweed a beatified Torridge. . . As soon as I had recovered from the scenery, I rushed to a shop for newspapers, and was amazed at finding that even in Edinburgh they had no Engl'sh papers, except that the Hotel had the inevitable Times. Truly it is still a distinct nation. Sunday^ Aug. 30. I did my duty by the Castle and the Calton Hills. Reconciled to Scott's monument, not to Nelson's. Since I was there they have put up a Duke of Wellington on a conventional charger thrown for ever on his haunches, and propped up by his solid bronze tail, probably an imitation of Emanuel Philibert at Turin. The distinct nation is not so narrow-minded as to deny itself the glory of Wellington and Nelson ; but I can't think of any Scotsmen honoured in London, except Erskine, and he is hidden away in a Lincoln's Inn cupboard. Oh, yes, we have some Napiers ; but no Adam Smith. Monday^ Sept. 7. Eighteen years since the sorrowful ^ and timid beginning of my professional life, I parted with a friend whose friendship is sometimes like coals of fire on my head; and travelling in company with sailor-like men bearing bundles of shiny black fioats for herring nets, turning away disconsolate from the sea raging under a Norwester, and after one or two beautiful glimpses of sea-coast fringed with slopes of cornfield, I reached Berwick-on-Tweed, and made love once more to that glorious river. As soon as I got into England I cared for nothing * An elder sister had died on Sept. 7, 1845. 1863] EILDON HILLS. CHARLOTTE BRONTE 99 but newspapers. Ten did I buy and read that day — Sco/stiia)!, CouraJi/, Times, Star, Daily Nczvs, Spec- fa tor. Illustrated Neivs, Saturday Review, &c., &c. Down with Charlcstown ! I wished hard for the Queen to come back and make Palmerston do his duty in stopping Laird's abominable ship-buikling. I forgot my own affairs in an agony of painless thought about England. Thus ends my journal. K. C. C, Sept. 26, 1863. To Lord Rosebery. Eton, Nov. 8, 1863. Mrs. Gaskell promised my Brother a set of her books, and gave him half a letter with the signature of C. Bronte. Her writing is not good enough for the author of Villette : she turns her d over, but she writes a good .$", which I mean to take up (a Greek 9), and she makes a in the Greek manner (a), or something like it. . . I brought away from Staines as my own a delightful Kentish dog called Bob. To-day Bob went out to walk with me, and behaved charmingly. I tied him up in a pro forma way, and left him when I went to chapel. After chapel he was gone ; . . . I suspect he has run back to Staines, w^here he lately tasted blood, the blood of a respectable parishioner, so that he cannot live there, and must be sent back. My present interest is in the deaf C. He lights up when I speak to him in school, and likes being looked over. Think what I lost during seventeen years of teaching in rooms that were too badly lighted or too H 2 lOO LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Nov. noisy for me to see answering- eyes or hear gentle answers ^. N. is almost civil, and does extra work with my pleasant party on Wednesdays ; and H. has yielded to coaxing, up to a temperature of about five above freezing-point. Hartopp is very proud of having fought at the Election riot. He says he knocked down a man ; but we believe the man was more like a wineskin than a man, and yielded to a push. Behind the curtain on Wednesday, two hours after the fray, I heard Rawlins and Lewis, K. S., asking Neville Lyttelton about his adventures. Twice did he answer ' I got a tap on the head,' and then they went into the depths of Plato and Livy. . . My belief is that he knocked down three fellow -creatures, and hurt his knuckles against some sort of eye. Willan had two black eyes, Turnor one ; Candy, at the peril of his life, rescued four captured hats ; but still some people came down hatless, as I learn from Hartopp's theme. . . I was greatly stirred by the Emperor's speech, and read it out at construing with trimmings — that is to say, a quotation from ' Locksley Hall.' He is not the w^orse statesman for indulging an ' ideologue's 'taste for visions such as young poets and undergraduates generally take up with, about ' a Parliament of man, a Federation of the world.' I like him better than his uncle ; but I would pay income-tax to put an Orleans king in his place or in his son's place. To Lord Rosebery. Eton, Nov. 25, 1863. On Sunday I read from my new book (a lovely bit of binding) a beautiful old poem which you ought to know, * Tlic ' New Schools ' at Eton were built in 1863. 1863] WINDSOR ELECTION. NAPOLEON III loi Tickeirs ' Kle^ii;-y on Addison,' all about Westminster Abbey, where I am to be next Sunday mornin^^. What can be better than the combination of classical heroic lines with the memor}' of classical liberal wise Addison — mention made of statesmen and poets, in a setting of perfect ecclesiastical associations. Journal. KING'S College, Cambridge, Dec. 29, 1863. — My holidays began Dec. 11. I went straight to Cambridge, reflecting on the way pleasantly on the good performances of my division and the increased amiability of many pupils, though my glory as a tutor is fast fading away. . . I had five days of the candour and vivacity of young men, reading nothing but Mozley's Essay, writing my reports in a charitable state of mind, making little plans for the holidays. . . On Wednesday, Dec. 16, I reached a very formidable house, finding a friend there for whom I would face a battery of beaux and belles. . . I had been at Battle Abbey on the day that Prince Albert was buried, and that w^eek was full of the excitement about the French. I had a comfortable remembrance of a romping game under the cedars near Harold's chapel, which took the edge off the terrors of the house. It was very cold then, two years ago ; and there were some awful old people there, colder than the Sussex hills. This time the house was twice as cheerful. The sublime Library, in which books are sumptuously buried like Cheops in a Pyramid, was then unfurnished, but is now radiant with blue velvet, and soporifically warm. . . In the Library I was at home, only afraid of slipping I02 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Dec. on the parquet. I found a folio copy of Matthew Paris, given away a hundred years ago by some teacher with a Dutch name to an ' ingenuus ac probus adolescens,' who had missed the first prize ; in the middle of the page were six lines of elegiacs about this failure, and at the bottom ' ora pro tuo magistro.'. . One evening I read Terence, two acts of Adelphi, out of an Editio Princeps, or something nearly as old, villainously printed ; not because I preferred such an edition, but the other available copies were used by my companions. . . As a contrast to the merry frivolities of the lads, I had, and I valued, the gravity and plain lengthy state- ments of my host^, who walked with me twice, and seemed to me, as in '6i, a truly honest and public spirited man. I learnt one or two things from him about politics. He said that Palmerston and Russell made up their minds quite by themselves about foreign policy, and did not show the other Cabinet men all the papers. He was aware that the Polish agitation was to a great extent factitious, and had refused when asked by Za- moiski to take up their cause in the House. . . One day I went upstairs to see the new bedroom in which the two boys sleep, and Archie showed me his father's miniature, and his best books, old prizes, and Charles Fox's Virgil, just given him by Lady Holland, and Chatham's letters to young Camelford, given by Lord Stanhope with a badly written but well worded inscrip- tion, in which he says that his nephew, to whom he gives the book, is related to Chatham, and able to appreciate his * lofty tone.' He showed me his collection of autographs, one of which was beautiful and pathetic, a letter written ' Lord Harry Vane (Duke of Cleveland). 1863] BATTLE. WESTMINSTER ABBEY 103 by Lord Dalhousie to decline an invitation because he was ' hardly presentable, for besides other tribulations he had become quite deaf.' How I should like to write his life, so as at least to know all about so kin^rly a personage. I wonder whether these men who kill themselves in making- empires were as idle at school as our lads are : perhaps the idlers are unconsciously obeying nature, in putting off all eifort, so that they are accumulating a stock of activity. They get mean- while, what we grubs do not get from our books, the priceless courage without which one cannot be a Dalhousie. . . Saturday evening I spent in the Athenaeum, reading softly. Next day four hours in the Abbey. Wordsworth in the afternoon, just before the Anthem, discoursed with more emphasis than force, chiefly on Jael, partly on himself. As usual I was far more moved by the epitaphs than by the sermons. Whenever I go there, I linger as long as the heartless vergers will let me by the humbler monuments, where I read in the rational English of the eighteenth century, or in choice Sapphics, eulogies of lost virtues ; implicitly believing that the irrecoverable souls were as fair as the marbles say they were, longing to know them, pitying them for being dead, pitying their kinsfolk who lost them so long ago. Then and there do I love my countrymen, and think them all kind, all worthy of immortality ; friends that have been denied me, allies whom I would fain summon to the wars, taxpayers who helped to make this glorious England, and who deserved to live long enough to hear, as I have heard, of Delhi and Lucknow. Resurgant si fieri potest. Pereat mors. Vivat Anglia. King's Cross, Monday, Dec. 20. — 9 a.m. A gleaming I04 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Dec. forenoon in graceful Hertfordshire ; all alone the whole way, so that I could, when it got cold, stand up and act windmill till fingers warmed again. 1 p.m. The well-known station at Doncaster. . . Nine years ago I went there for the first time, and truly it was a great day in my rushlight life. 2 p.m. A lively gracious greeting at the door, to which I walked up silently. . . Sir Charles ^ and Henry out hunting : my own host at home. . . At once, under the old inimitable spell, I became talkative, honest, cheerful, and comparatively courteous. There was another leaf of my mind turned over. Instead of having to go out of my way to speak that I might provoke a listener to think, which is my staple employment at school, I w^as myself put upon a luxurious rack of incessant suggestions and questions, having a feast of opinions set before me with a constant refrain of ' don't you think so ? ' invited oxavy minute to commit myself to some statement, probed and teased for all such scraps of thought or knowledge, or at least interpretation, as my rusty memory retains, urged to read this pamphlet and that book, never scolded for lukewarmness, but rather thanked for contributions towards the settlement of theories. . . His father and the mother seem to gather virtue and sweetness from looking at him and talking to him, though they fight hard against his unpractical and exploded Church views, and think his zeal misdirected, and are very glad to hear me trying to modify his principles. He pretends to triumph over his n. other, tp convict her of inconsistency, to expose her half-truths, to scout her old-fashioned notions: she fights hard, • Sir Charles Wood ; Viscount Halifax). 1863] IIICKLETON 105 repeats herself with indomitable confidence, scolds him, and plays the domestic Pope ; and all the while her face gets bri Pius IX. ,864] JOURNAL AT ROME 121 were happy, rcadino- ilu- Inscrlj^tions on the monu- ments. . . We had a royal view of the beautiful hills. Then we walked back by Coliseum, stumbled upon Cloaca Maxima, with which I was charmed and the boy diso^^usted ; we agreed, however, about the two bell- towers, St. Ceorge^ I think, and Mouth of Truth, and 1 enjoyed them all the more because I had never heard of them. Indeed, I think the second is the prettiest thing in Rome, and w^ell worth imitation as a church tower. So I took the lad to Keats 's grave, as we had nothing else to do, and I suppose I am the only man that ever went there twice in one day. Negatively I enjoyed my escape from the babble about art. tried it on wuth me, but I at once indicated a preference for Paris, and in other ways showed myself Vandal enough to be left to invincible ignorance. He was so cjood as to suoforest that I should devote the morning to Overbeck's studio ! On a rainy day there might be something to be said for it ; but as a general rule one bears sea-sickness and diligence-grind for the sake of the old rocks and the inexhaustible sky. All the artists of this century are dust compared to the creeper that hung like a child's uncombed hair over a white garden wall near the Lateran, a handful of the largesse scattered by spring. April 5 we went to Civita Vecchia, and took dili- gence for Follonica. This w^as an austere journey, all the length of the Maremma— coming down with a scream to a dark river (Ombrone), and w^aiting on the bank for a ferry-boat coming to us silently wath a Cyclops light. One village ever)^ five hours. Ninety-four miles of wilderness without rails. . . ' Sta. Francesca. 122 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [May That day we had the loveliest sunset at Leghorn ; and in the street at night we saw the awful and deeply interesting sight of the Misericordia^ the black -calicoed masked men, with one great torch, tramping fiercely down the street, and stopping at a gin-palace for the coffin : this I watched, standing amongst the street children, who did not seem frightened ; but if anything could add to the terrors of death it would be that mass of live blackness. . . Two days of brilliant weather at Paris. . . We saw Sainte Chapelle, which is a gem ; Notre Dame, where it is charming to hear the sacristan holding forth about the true modern martyr, the Archbishop of Paris, slain at the barricades in trying to make peace. They show you his vertebra with the bullet, a picture of his death, his robes, &c., &c. It is a remarkable synthesis of hagiology with scientific truth. His death is as fine a thing as you can find in any part of Church history. We saw the tomb of Napoleon, which is a poor concern ; we went to a review of 3,000 cavalry, which was beautiful ; we heard some fresh, brilliant music, Gounod's Mireille\ we shopped; we talked politics and history. Dalmeny is a strong but wise admirer of both Napoleons. Altogether he must be the wisest boy that ever lived— and full of fun, too. To A. H. Drum7Jio7id. Eton, May 13, 1864. Read the Lt/e of Sir William Napier. . . I now read the new Life of Wolfe. They are both l)ooks which an officer shouki read airefully, making notes. If you don't fill your head in your youth you will Ixi 1864] LETTER TO A YOUNG SOLDIER 123 found ' Menc, Tckcl, Upharsin ' when the time comes to take command .ind liave influence. This is just what the concjucror of Scinde says most emphatically. It is all very well to trust to animal spirits and tact in early life ; but when the bloom is g-one an empty-headed man has but little influence. I find William Napier saying-, quoting- the Duke, too, that half our operations are ruined by stupid generals of division. Men of uncultivated minds are generally stupid at forty, except in their own groove. To Hon. F. IVood. July 24, 1864. The life of the last summer month at Eton is probably as happy as any kind of life. It is pleasure set in a framework of duties : the daily obligations are, as it were, the hem that keeps the garment from unravelling. What else is there that makes pleasure respectable ? would you not be ashamed of it if there were no yoke to bear ? With you it seems to be the staple of life, not a diversion or a refreshment after toil. Would life be honourable, would mankind be respected by angels, if we all lived always in pleasure } This is the question Cicero asks. But w^hen the ancients speak contemp- tuously of pleasure, they mean something very different from what you enjoy. Your pleasure consists in good fellowship above all things : there is nothing solitary about it — nothing like sitting ' each under his own vine, his own fig-tree, drinking his owm cup.' The essence of the life which you enjoy here and remember proudly is brotherly and neighbourly sym- pathy. In the most easily-remembered periods of this kind of life you are making common sacrifices, joint 124 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [July efforts, you have hopes and fears towards which many minds converge. What is dull and wearisome here is taken patiently because you bear it together : it is when some are exempt, when there is a doubt about exemp- tion, when it is not certain whether you are expected to do a thing or not, that discontent arises. At the universities duty becomes more irksome, because there is so little there of universal obligation, and perfect, certain obligation. But then you substitute for the routine school duties private studies which bear dis- tinctly on your own success. At college a man is divided in life : partly he is working for and with others, partly he is struggling against others for a place. It is a less beautiful or poetical form of life than the Eton form. But the desire of knowledge is stronger: the power of gaining knowledge is greatly increased, the perception of the value of intellect is greatly quickened. From college you will look back with some regret for lost opportunities of gaining knowledge ; but it is not certain that you will be justly reproaching yourself for negli- gence. Perhaps there is much offered here which can be taken only in fragments and by reflection. As vsoon as you are out of the ' chamber of maiden thought,' at once you begin to regret, to repine. The poets say that in youth we love autumn. High pleasure comes to us tempered and blended with regret, with a sense of insufficiency, witli regard, as we say, that is, looking back. This is the keynote of poetry. This is the mystery of music: the sense that we lose, have lost, something — that there is something we cannot reach that there is infinity which we cannot reach. l\'rhaps the most exalted state of a man's mind is 1864] AN ETON BOY'S LAST SUMMER 125 that in wliicli he strains after a comprehension of all that is most excellent in mankind — when he is seized with a sweeping- theory of history, animated with a lonor-ino- hope of universal human progress, dreaming, like the man in ' Locksley Hall,' of a golden year that is to be, when the wars shall cease and the nations shall be made one, or praying early and late for an universal Church w ithout rent or scar. In such aspirations there must ahvays be, with pure and noble minds, a sweetness and a bitterness too. In the best hours of generous youth one must mourn over one's weakness and limited range, one must deplore the hindrances presented by society w^hich make it impossible to know all men, to act w4th all classes : one must hate the diversities which keep nations apart : one must love zealously those few men of one's acquaintance who are above prejudice, who are truly liberal, who seem to be incapable of giving way to the w^orld. In the very age of great catholic ideas one is really drawn most closely to the {qw. Pleasure is then found in the hearty alliance and out- spoken communications of a select body of men of one's owai age. Then comes the desire to influence others : and every moment comes disappointment. You find that you cannot have things your own way. Even a child or a servant beats you ; a family attorney is impregnable, a churchwarden shakes off your zeal as a seal throws off water ; a brother magistrate or a Government officer makes you feel very yotmg. Then comes the doubt whether one is meant to do anything but take care of one's own skin, or save one's own soul, or continue, in a well-marked rut, the course of one's own family. 126 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [July Then you are tempted to acquiesce in the world's ways, to admit that there is nothing to be done but smile and avoid committing yourself and make the best of every chance of getting something for yourself and your own kinsfolk. When this time comes, it would be well if one could vividly bring before one the very happiest and noblest part of one's early youth. The remembrance of what you felt and intended when you were confirmed, or when you were leaving school, or when you lost some dear friend or relation, would have a great effect in saving you from going back to Egypt. If you had a journal, or a bundle of letters, or a book of poetry with marks in it, or a biography of some good man that you had read and been moved by, it would be a countercharm, it would be like the plant that Mercury gave to Ulysses. Journal. ETON, Sttnday.Jtily 24, 1864. — I wrote two sheets full of outlines of a discourse on youth and its rising above the world. I wrote with hardly an erasure, and finished what looks complete, in time for Church. We were not out of Church till 12.30, when my listeners met. I began my talk easily by speaking to R. Lewis about his essay on music which he is to write — its effects— its use in training — rhythm — form — how to the performers it is finite, regular, formal ; how to non- musicians who have imagination it suggests the infinite, awakens longings that we cannot satisfy ; how this desire for what is unattainable blends with all our pleasure, which is not the ' pleasure ' spoken of by the old pagan philosophers ; that our pleasure, as soon as we become men, is indissolubly blended with regret, remembrance, 1864] PUPILS TAKING LEAVE 127 reiTfard ; that early manhood is a sort of autumn ; that we repine, reproach ourselves, < ften with njustice, &c., &c. One notion followed another, and I was helped by what I had written, hut not bound by it. Amonqr other thinofs I told the lads that manhood will bring- them Ephphatha, that they will some day * dare to seem as good and generous as they are.' A strange sermon : but they listened, and answered me when I questioned them of their own experience ; and my friend, in the evening, gladly took my MS. to keep for his brother to read ; so perhaps I had as much success as the dignitary with his pulpit. . . Jicly 2j. I had a peculiar pleasure — a letter from the father of a boy who had been in my division, thanking me for making his boy's work pleasant to him ; the most gratifying letter I ever had on professional matters. At 10.45 we separated lingeringly, three or four taking copies of the Vale . . . then I had to sit up to do work for school. . . Thursday^ July 28. This morning I gave a lecture on the examination papers, and told the boys how they had done. By 10 a.m. all school work was over. At breakfast we had Charles Wood's eager proposal that I should go at once to Hickleton. It was a great help towards breaking the fall. But there was nothing to comfort me in parting with Holland ; and he was the picture of tenderness. He and others stayed a good time, talking in the ordinary easy way — no confessional — and one by one they shook hands ; first N. Lyttelton, veiling his grief at leaving school in his quaint hard Stoic manner, shaking hands with X. — they used to hate each other, but have been great friends this summer. Then R. Hussey spent 128 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [July some time with me, copying- out two of his honoured exercises into my book whilst I did business. M. Lewis came, and his shyness did not prevent my saying what I wished to say to him. But to Holland I could say nothing" : now that I am writing about it I cannot bear to think that he is lost. They were all gone : I had been plunged into bills and rummagings, when I had visits fro C. Moore and Douglas Hope, who came as his shadow. We had a very friendly, cordial chat, and as they were going, I found that they wanted copies of the Vale. Last of all came for the last time the boy who has been my companion, the constant helpmate in my troubles ; he was grave, pitying me ; as he has always been truly compassionate in my illnesses and gloomi- nesses. What a world it is for sorrow. And how dull it would be if there were no sorrow. I went to luncheon, and thought the lady who has made our evenings beautiful with music seemed as sad as I was. Friday, July 29. I wrote letters in the shady room with the birds behind me : a very elaborate one to Lady H. about her boy's being- made to write, and not having everything done for him by private tutors ; a hopeful letter about one who is getting to be very interesting. Item, a delicate and complimentary account of W., perhaps the smartest bit of writing I ever turned out, and strictly veracious. Item, a good account of P. and G., whom we have certainly improved. . . 6.30. Dined at Egham Vicarage, met the Right Hon. Wm. Monsell, M.P., Catholic, an excellent man who is coming back to the Ministry. . . He talked with the 1O04] MR. MOXSELL AND NEIVMAN 129 greatest openness about Newmans Apologia^ quite pleased to find that we had read it ; he was quite proud of it. ' How remarkable that after a long- and general con- spiracy to silence him he should regain the ear of the nation. Dr. Dcillinger, the highest authority in our Church, says it is the most important work he knows, even ranking it with St. Augustine's Confessions. 'Longman pressed Newman for the MS., so as to bring out a number every week : in twenty-four hours he spent tw^enty-two hours writing ^ ' He was not appreciated in Ireland, nor is he by the Italianizing party in our Church. He went to Birmingham because he was told to go there : they should have sent him to London. He is made happy by the general reception of his book^ by finding that men are still attached to him. ' He did write the pamphlet against Peel about Mechanics' Institutes. ' He has more faith in the providence of God than any man I ever knew.' These were some of the things said by this personal friend of Newman. ^ See Nineteenth Century for Sept. 1896, ' Recollections of Cardinal Newman,' by Aubrey De Vere. Archdeacon Furse writes, Oct.22, 1896,35 follows : ' Once when visiting Cardinal Newman I happened to tell him that Wm. Monsell reported to me that he had on one occasion given about twenty hours out of the twenty-four to the composition of the Apologia. The Cardinal smiled, and said " Did I ? I forget. If Wm. Monsell told you that I said so, I am sure I did. I was a good deal younger then." He then rose from his chair, and leaning his elbows on the chimneypiece, half buried his face in his hands, and said slowly and with pauses, " But I never told him — I never told any one — that half the time I was writing that book I was in floods of tears." ' K I30 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [July Sunday^ July 31. I walked alone, with a quick step, having a tune in my head and the wind in my face, down the river-bank past Pentonhook Lock, where in 1836 we beat Westminster, which was the happiest and most heroic day of my early school life. Does any boy now feel the elevation of heart that I felt that day ? How I loved the bargees that cheered our returning barouche in Windsor street, when we came back with our blue ribbons triumphant, having shirked 6 o'clock absence with Keate's connivance. Poor bargees, all dead by this time. I read Newman's Apologia, and was deeply moved by the end of the main work, before the Appendix, where he thanks his friends: but I concluded after all that he is not single-minded, for he shifts over from the philosopher's to the simple believer's attitude ; he is bound to give a wise man's, not a woman's, defence of his new creed, and to refute the arguments he once used against it. Maplrdurham, Reading, Monday, Aug. i. — I had a charming drive from Reading over Caversham Bridge and through the private road of Caversham Warren, under shade and past fresh green crops, to Mapledurham. A lovely land, where the poplars are big and stand far apart, and are in contrast with symmetrical oaks or cedars, as the mellow chimneys of old red brick are with the scarps of chalk, and the piles of shaped logs of beech- wood stand on the banks waiting for the barges, and mallow, breast-high, blooms in rivalry with loose strife, and the mill has a wheel with broad teeth like the Torrington mill, and the Catholic squire's house has the Protestant church crouching at its gateway, as it did in the days of the Plantagenets. 1864] VISIT TO MAPLEDURIIAM 131 Mr. Coleridi^e ^ \N'as very gracious and full of com- munications : . . . he called me ' Hilly ' every five minutes with the utmost gravity. He told me about Newman, whom he wishes to write to or even to visit and renew his old friendship : they are of the same age. Newman was a good mimic : kept his satirical spirit under control, in print, till he turned Catholic : ought now to apologize for having satirized Keble and Pusey. (I suggest that he cannot be asked formally to unsay anything: one must be content with his having practi- cally cancelled the satire by resuming the language of respect.) He has printed nothing in the Apologia that bore upon his old friends without submitting the proof- sheets to them. Keble said to Coleridge : ' By all means go to see him, if you are at Birmingham. I would give anything to do so myself. He still loves his old friends much more than his new Catholic friends.' ' Those who know Newman (says Coleridge) know that he sometimes sits weeping for two days together.' He never let himself become a confessor of women. Pusey gave it up : was disgusted or wearied with it. Pusey, Keble, and others, being- asked, advised Coleridge not to attempt the confessional with his pupils. . . Coleridge was as bitter as Wm. Monsell was, against Kingsley, and as tender to Newman. He agreed with me in thinking that Newman had not (yet was bound to have) refuted his old arguments for the English Church. I read the article on Public Schools in the Edinburgh, and felt quite ready to join in a school that should do w^ithout Greek and Latin. The hopeless thing is that the Universities give such overwhelming reasons for ^ Rev. Edward Coleridge, Fellow of Eton and Rector of Maple- durham. K 2 132 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Aug. keeping- up the dead languages. This the writer for- gets. . . My best wishes for the Comet's journey ; and when he comes back may he find slavery and bigotry melted away. Aug. 4. Went to Athenaeum, and read like a butterfly all the evening: a bad article in the Dublin Review., a very good one in the Christian Remembrancer on the great Apologia : observed how far superior the Anglican piety and taste are to the Roman. . . Began a new book about Jeanne d'Arc by the high-minded lady who wrote the memoir of Helene d'Orleans, and found her tone of mind quite poetical and rather philosophical. . . HiCKLETON, DONCASTER, Thursday.— Ak^v food Charles Wood took me out to pick ferns and grasses for decoration, which he afterwards effected very skilfully, reminding me of his primrose chains wrought ten years ago : in the wood we met just one kissing shower, the first rain I have heard pattering on green leaves this year. . . At dinner my host observed to his wife that he had all his four boys together — and well might he be proud of them. . . We discussed the voluntary surrender of Gibraltar, which the eldest son vigorously advocated. . . In the library Charles made me talk to him : I told him everything I could think of that would interest him ; he was insatiable : truly the desire to be taught comes at the wrong time for schoolmasters. How gladly would I bring out my humble stores to the regular customers, the boys of seventeen, in school and pupil-room — and they will have none of them. . . I received to-day a letter from W., very affecting, even in my lethargy. Quis vcl cjunlis sum ego, quem tanto amorc dignentur boni viri ? t864] CONVERSATIONS AT HICKLETON 133 Priday, An(^. 5. 1 read, and made a few statistical extracts from Sir Charles Trevelyan's minute on a gold currency for India, and had a talk about it with the Secretary ^ : tried to impress upon him that if his five- rupee notes were good, as no doubt they are, so would one-rupee notes be ; that if silver coins were tokens, it was a pity to waste so expensive a substance in making them ; that coin bearing a real intrinsic value is really wanted only for clearing international accounts after striking balances ; that the Hindoos had advanced a good deal beyond their superstitious habits of hoard- ing, and might advance, probably were advancing, gradually towards a rational habit of embodying wealth in securities or claims. Laid down my favourite doctrine that money is purchasing power, &c. Satisfactory talk. . . . Charles talked to me at night : we considered what knowledge was useful, and concluded that it was fair and easy to say that there was no such thing as useful knowledge, except in so far as the sciences and arts are useful in enabling people to attain that leisure which breeds refinement. ' It seems that the best thing to do is to join hands and so drift to the grave together,' said one ; and the other did not gainsay it. . . Saturday, A ug. 6. I told Charles that I wished him to read things that did not interest him, such as books about the English Constitution, &c. (so much for our renunciation of knowledge). I warned him against the danger of prolonging boyhood unduly and remaining in a family groove. . . Sunday, Aug. 7. I tried to read a little Descartes, and then a little Voltaire, but was draw^n into one of the old charming talks with my two friends ; and they paid ^ Sir Charles Wood. 134 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Aug. me a visit in my bedroom afterwards, and then left me to make this record of three days, which would be called happy if I thought myself capable of happiness. . . The late Earl Grey had some trouble in convincing- the poor that they were not meant to be poisoned under the new Poor Law : he went about eating the Union bread in public ; and at last he bought an Union loaf every week, and had it served up at breakfast, where the family thought it the best bread they got. The present Earl was one of Melbourne's private secre- taries, and often re-sealed his letters, which the Minister had himself sealed so carelessly that they came in two : he was very careless, left all sorts of secrets about : the secretary had to sweep up and burn. Talking of Outram, Capt. E. said that he was brave to foolhardiness. He was standing with several men looking from a terrace into a tank full of alligators ; some one said, ' I wonder whether any one would plunge in among those brutes ? ' Outram did so at once ; made such a splash that he frightened them all off. E. told me that in some parts of India tigers had become so numerous since the disarming Act, that they were obliged to give back the arms to the people. Monday, Aug. 15. I am still trying to remember what I heard, learnt, or perceived at Hickleton. The very effort saves me from losing the general impression of rare and undeserved enjoyment. . . These two good brothers accompanied Charles and me in the carriage to Doncaster. . . So my parting was cushioned softly. The train came late, when we two were deep in one of the regular talks, and smart young men armed against the grouse put their heads out of windows to call ' Charley ' into their carriages ; but he 1864] LORD MELBOURNE. OUTRAM 135 was so g-ood as to stick to the private or extra carriage which the stationmaster put on for him ; and I enjoyed his companionship all the way to the Quaker town of Darlington. . . I got out at Chfton, imagining I might get country quarters tolerably near the north end of UUeswater. So I landed at a neat httle station at 3 p.m., but found that there was no inn ; even the village was some way off; nor was there even a man, much less a fly, to take my goods : so I left them with the lone stationmaster, wondering whether he ever saw a tourist before, and marched off vaguely towards Askham. . . After a hot but pleasant walk over a park (Lowther), through beautiful woods, along fine fresh uplands, to which I wished I could have led some of those starving Yorkshire cows ; through lanes fringed with the most fairy-like combination of grasses, ferns, and other name- less plants, I dropt down to Pooley Bridge in time to get a comfortable meal, a sweet glimpse of the lake, and a snug coach-drive back to Penrith, which is but three miles from Clifton : so that I spun out three miles into seven miles walking and six coaching, and then spent five shillings on fetching my luggage ; and it was a thoroughly good job too. . . My companions inside the coach were not at first appe- tizing: they were two plain middle-class elderly women. . . I thought they were Lancashire shop-people, such as I am used to see in the Lakes ; but presently the first speaker said, ' Dunmallet will look so beautiful — sheep all up the slope of the hill.' This sounded like a native ; I began to think she was introducing her own land to a visitor . . . their little memories kept budding as they passed house after house, till we came to Eamont Bridge, when the 136 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Aug. lady with the ringlets remarked emphatically, ' Now we are in Cumberland ; ' and I knew it was no Lancashire sightseer, but a true Cumbrian. Then the other spoke of some garden or grounds, lamenting that the storm had blown down some trees, but saying that it was still beautiful, morning, noon, and evening ; then the other murmured in a homely, tender way, ' I often imagine it to myself; ' and then I knew she was coming back brimfull of piety to her home. Good luck to her ! Saturday, Aug. 13. • .1 determined to walk to Brougham Castle and the Countess's Pillar. Luckily I had the wit to charter a small boy as a guide to set me on the way, a plan generally to be recommended, because the boy does not know too much, can be easily got rid of, gets a lesson from his employer, and earns an honest coin. My young Cumbrian was fifteen, but still at school ; a British school, in a new advanced class, paying a higher sum than before, qualifying for apprenticeship. . . ' A boy was drowned close to the Castle the other day out of a raft, fishing; his father went to look for him, stood up to his neck in the river, poked for him with a crooked stick, got hold of him by the breast and lifted him up, but let him drop ; but Jack Ousby got him up.' Such was his talk — all to the point : I tried to be as good a raconteur^ and told him briefly the story of the Shepherd Lord, the Clifford of Brougham Castle ; but I found my little friend did not listen. So I gave him my usual exhortations to read books and copy extracts into a blank book, and rewarded his half mile of walk with a fourpenny bit, which faith persuades me was at once spent on a copybook. I went alone to the mild Wordsworth's haunts, found the wS hep herd Lord's keep redolent of cows who had i:,:.,] CAI'EXOCn. THE SHEPHERD LORD 137 retreated into it from the cruel sun ; they did not jo^rudofe me the ^reen bank and shade on the west. . . I trudq^ed alonq- the Appleby road, till I reached the little minaret, now made useful as a dial and as a notice- board for X'olunteers, who request me to keep the hi^h road when ' the red flag is on the butt.' What butt ? Wordsworth would have written a sonnet on the butt, as he has on the dole of bread given at the pillar ' for ever ' in memory of the great Countess Anne s mother. As I knew that the pillar was Jacobean ( — ugly) I think I did no common homage to poetry in going to see it. . . Since I have been here (Capenoch) I have been doing nothing but writing this Journal and VQ2i(X\ng Miser ables, unless one reckons conversation. Yesterday Mr. Gladstone ^ drove me to Drumlanrig, where I should have enjoyed the grounds, but for the sun and the flies. . . To-day we went— a carriage full — host and hostess, two young ladies and I, and had a long day of sun and air, with a fair amount of interesting country, a few wild flowers, and many sweet songs in the twilight. What I have kept is a new tune, ' Sir Randal,' a pathetic, simple ballad about a young Scot who went to the wars of High Germany in 1632, and found when he came that cousin Jean, who wept for him when he left her, disowned him on his return. . . It was a treat to be eight hours in a carriage with three ladies, all lively and composed and perfectly sensible and up to fun. We laughed under the tyrant sun ; and our sympathy with wronged lovers came out, like the sock, at nightfall. . . Miss Margaret Gladstone and her mother delighted in telling us the many and undeniable proofs of the Duchess of Buccleuch's goodness of heart. ^ of Capenoch. 138 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Aug. I am told that T. Carlyle left the county in disgust with his neighbours because they had only two topics, drilled turnips and the Duke of Buccleuch. But, in spite of his great authority, I shall go with the shire. . . Wednesday^ A ug. 1 7. This is a day to be noted in this little book with honour and thanks. I have been well ; actually disembodied ; unmindful of physiological facts, drawing breath like a bird, and feeding like a contented cow. I dreamt last night that I was at the head of a Whig combination ; I composed a jolly song about the ' good old cause.' I got dukes to come to dinner and forget themselves. I woke with a sense, such as I had in my boyhood, of having had a deep, rosy sleep. I walked five hours on the moors, knee- deep in heather, and steeped in the finest air, lying down now and then to rest, or to escape shot, or to see the cool clouds, with ' Sir Randal ' running in my head — no fatigue, no heat, no thirst — rimmed in with little mountains that had all the modulations wanted for the due rendering of the sunlight. With my host marched his amiable brother William. . . . He told us that he knew Gen. Ramsay, aide-de- camp to the present Emperor of Russia. R. said that he believed that Nicholas on his deathbed sent for his son, and said he had wished to set the serfs free but dared not, and charged him with the duty. He (Mr. Wm. Oladstone) heard from a Russian ofiicer that he left Moscow with 2,500 men, and reached Sebastopol with 500. His firm was employed to help a Scotchman in scUing a steamer at Petersburg: of ^6,500, the pur- chase-money, £\y^(y:i went in brilx's to the func- tionaries. . . This evening, solo singing and solo playing alter- 1864] NICHOLAS I. MAC AULA Y. MUSIC 139 nately — both pure aiul finished — and four people of one mind, as we were in the carriage, in absorbing- it. Why should this cx)me to an end ? Why do voices and fing-ers fail, and minds start asunder ? As poor old King- Hudson said of the champagne, how much lost time have I to make up ? how many evenings have I spent in dulness, when I might have been in the bowers of music and that womanly courtesy which lavishes sweet sounds and thanks one, by looks if not by words, for listening ? Friday, Aug. 19. I sit down at noon instead of midnight to talk to my book. I have been sitting in the library, reading- Macaulay's account of the wars of the Orangemen, the death of John Temple, who could not bear dishonour and remorse, the gathering of the angry Protestants at Kenmare, ' the imperial race standing at bay.' Meanwhile through the door came the simple, relig-ious, plaintive singing, * Waste and weary,' ' This is no my ain plaid,' and other sad sweetnesses that made my nature ache with those pains that neither angels above us, nor the kind, affectionate dogs below us can ever feel — ' longings like despair.' . . Life without music is despicable, with it inexplicably strange. Listening to pathetic songs I rebel against the death of those who sang them in the old times : the makers of those melodies are my unknown brethren ; all others who speak in what we call words fail to let me know them thoroughly ; music is the only communion of hearts, and it makes one's heart feel hopelessly empty. . . Saturday, Aug. 20. We are all vain, more or less ; but some of us have taste, and some^ pride, to keep down I40 LETTERS AND JOURNALS [Aug. the display of self-complacency. How much good it would do M. to read high literature, were it only for the sake of finding something above him, something to admire. Churchgoing does not ensure this. These men take preachers, whether Spurgeon, or Monro (of Harrow Weald), or S. Oxon, or Manning, just as they take speakers, singers, engineers, and other clever men. They are, in some sort, all of them ' Peter Bells.' Sunday, Attg. 21. Yesterday I went up the valley of the Soar five miles or so . . . then I walked home by another way and enjoyed my stepping powers, and welcomed some huge inky clouds which threw a few drops on my umbrella but had not the heart to spoil the harv^est. Outside the house I stood chattering and looking at the throbbing scarlet of the geraniums. . . I fancy N. has a great deal of lost time to make up in the way of loving and being loved. A month of trouble and sorrow would let her soul chip the shell, and let loose the true woman. . . Is there any training for women but suffering ? . . . Went to the Free church. . . Mrs. put me into the minister's pew. . . I was in difficulties as people crowded in, and had to take refuge in the seat of a hospitable layman, who smelt hard of peppermint and went on obdurately pepperminting all through service. The music was more tuneful, but the preacher was more nasal and monotonous than at the Mstablishment. They had similar instruments of torture, poles with boxes at the end pushed along the pew-shelves to rake up the embers of zeal, and even little children dropt coins into them. I can fancy these poles tipped with burning brushes and pushed under heretical chins at an auto- da- Jc. . . 1864] FAREIVELLS AT CAPENOCH 141 I have ^iven the united parents my best advice about the education of their son John. . . I lon^ to tell the shrewd, kindly, even-minded mother that she ou